Shattered heart, shattered mind.
TW: OSDDRobin’s scared. And when I say scared, I don’t mean spooked, I mean… terrified. He doesn’t know what’s happening, he doesn’t know how to cope with these changes. Honestly, nor do I. I think we...
View ArticleComing home.
TW: OSDD, AbuseSo the body’s dad is coming tomorrow for the body’s birthday. I think he’s cool, I think Valli’s excited because he’s nice. But the thing is I don’t know if we want to let him know about...
View ArticleUncovered memories.
TW: OSDDSo, while I was looking through a lot of Kes’ GoogleDrive stuff. We found something called “The Castle” which she wrote a long time ago. She segmented her mind to about 9 different departments...
View ArticleDemons in the mind.
TW: OSDDWell, I see why Zelda keeps us hidden from the world. A friend of Kes’ found out and she thought it was okay. But it turns out… he sees us as demons in her mind. Like… we’re the bully here. I...
View ArticleAll at rest.
TW: OSDD, FlashbacksWe found out what happened earlier. That was Valli, the youngest in our system and had a bit of a flashback about the past. She’s mute, so she doesn’t talk, only signs. She speaks...
View ArticleAltered realities
TW: Flashbacks, anxietyTonight has been simply a whirlwind. I have been talking to a girl for a very long time, trying to help her deal with flashbacks. Today, Valli had a flashback as well, so we know...
View ArticleMore than us.
TW: OSDD, AdoptionBefore we entered the community of those with DID/OSDD, we didn’t know what we were getting into. For us, this was a fight we had to take on our own. We didn’t understand how it all...
View ArticleThe defeat of love.
TW: OSDD, SelflessnessMy friends are sad. I don’t know what to do… It hurts me so much to think that they were in pain and I couldn’t do anything at all to help them. I want to help everyone all the...
View ArticleHello, my name is anxiety.
TW: OSDD, AnxietyA few updates because I fucking can :sunglass emoji*So, when we first found out about our system, we had a nice 4 people. Me, Zelda, Raz, and Valli. Now we have a nice 10… Which is...
View ArticleUpdated Alter List
Updated list of all the alters as of 10/5/18.Zelda (23)- Role: Protector, trauma holder- Pronouns: She/her or they/them- Sexuality: i don’t give a fuck- Likes: Smoking, classical music, relaxing music,...
View ArticlePromised childhood.
TW: OSDD, AbuseI remember that once Kes was looking at childhood photos, and they said to their abuser, “Huh, it almost looks like I had a happy childhood…” Of course, the abuser only laughed and said,...
View ArticleMemories of what never happened.
TW: DID, memories, sexual assault/r*peLots and lots of system changes. One change is that I, Robin, remember my old life before I was an alter. I’ll list some fun things I guess?I’m 19 years old, born...
View ArticleFaded Memories
TW: AmnesiaI’m starting to feel really out of place. I’m forgetting a lot of things and I’m not sure what to do. I remember mom a lot and I miss her. Yet, there’s a part of me that I’m hoping for...
View ArticleWhere are you?
TW: I don’t even knowWhat’s even happening… Where is everyone, why are they disappearing? Last time when I remember being inside I didn’t see Mei or X. Zelda wouldn’t talk to me. What’s happening,...
View ArticleTW: AbusePros of telling The Dad: He might understand the severity of the...
TW: AbusePros of telling The Dad: He might understand the severity of the abuser’s actions.He might understand how to see me.It’d make me, Robin, comfortable knowing I didn’t have to call him dadCons...
View ArticleI’m not scared.
Agh… I hate admitting it. I absolutely fucking HATE it. But… I’m scared. I hate admitting that I’m scared. I usually am not. I’m not supposed to be scared. I dunno, I always face things without fear....
View ArticleChanges afoot.
TW: DID?I get it. I finally get what Lisandra is doing… We’re planning to go back to Minnesota, and our decisions have prompted a lot of changes. Many members are no longer in the headspace, and...
View ArticleHe loves me not.
TW: Self esteemAbout… two and a half hours ago I just got in a relationship. Two and half hours ago I told someone I’d try. He’s had a crush on me since September so I agreed to let him have a chance –...
View ArticleRamblingTW: Anxiety, DissociationI probably made the mistake of drinking a...
RamblingTW: Anxiety, DissociationI probably made the mistake of drinking a diet cola at 9PM and then 11PM… Yet how can I fault myself with the what feels like the world on my shoulders? I find myself...
View ArticleOut of PlaceTW: Dysphoria, Self-harmSometimes I get sad, for no reason. It...
Out of PlaceTW: Dysphoria, Self-harmSometimes I get sad, for no reason. It pops up outta no where and I just feel… depressed. I feel as if I could slip comfortably into my old skin, I can pick up old...
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